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Why Might You Feel Disconnected From Your True Self & A Fulfilling Life Even After Years of Spiritual & Personal Growth Practice?
“The spontaneous movement in all of us is toward connection, health, and aliveness. No matter how withdrawn and isolated we have become ... on the deepest level, just as a plant spontaneously moves toward sunlight is in each of us an impulse moving toward connection and healing.”
Laurence Heller, PhD & Aline Lapierre, PsyD
Perhaps it's integration and embodiment...
Hello and welcome to my site! My name is Brianna.
I support people to explore and digest what’s in the way of their authentic self and aliveness. We explore and flush out such issues as self-rejection, difficult relational dynamics, individuating from authorities figures and integrating spiritual awakenings so that we can then access who we are at our core. Disempowering internal states and behaviors can shift more organically and grace can flow into our lives.
I came to this work after years of spiritual work, before a crucial element came to light for my healing. It was to include the psycho-spiritual and psychobiological - what I believed about self & world, and physiological dysregulation in brain & body. Distorted ideas we have about ourselves are not just mental but are held in the body as tension and collapse. From the fertile ground of my prior work, a subtle but radical shift began as I tended to core early wounds. The aliveness within me emerged (experienced as spontaneously arising in my body of joy, love, strength, etc. ) and my life’s work as a spiritual counselor unfolded, led by Grace. This new phase of my personal and professional development included meeting a spiritual teacher who taught me how to digest my early history through body/heart/mind, and the privilege of training with two spiritually-informed leading edge psychologists.
Even those most dedicated to evolving may still find a sense of struggle, surviving but not thriving. Attachment, relational and developmental trauma can cause us to not feel safe and secure within ourselves, the world and even god/Source. Such disturbances may lead to adaptive strategies that disconnect us from our creative resourceful self, contributing to difficulties throughout life, including our spiritual path.
We may engage in deep healing work that could sometimes trigger difficult early memories too overwhelming to stay present in their bodies and emotions. We might spiritually bypass, rather than integrate, early distresses such as abandonment, neglect, abuse, premature or unwanted birth, mis-attunement from parents, trans-generational trauma and more. We may increase our practices to get enlightened out of suffering which doesn't seem to work. Julie Brown Yau, PhD, an expert in spirituality & trauma teaches that dissolution of self from intense spiritual practice can trigger terror of early trauma when it may have felt like annihilation/ not-existing.