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 Why Might You Feel Disconnected From Your True Nature & Fullness of Life Even After Years of Spiritual Practice?


“The spontaneous movement in all of us is toward connection, health, and aliveness.  No matter how withdrawn and isolated we have become ... on the deepest level,  just as a plant spontaneously moves toward sunlight is in each of us an impulse moving toward connection and  healing.”

Laurence Heller, PhD & Aline Lapierre, PsyD

Perhaps it's integration and embodiment...  

Hello and welcome to my site! My name is Brianna.   

I support people to explore and digest what’s in the way of their authentic self and aliveness .  We explore such things as self-rejection,  healthy relational dynamics, integrating spiritual awakenings, and individuation from spiritual authorities.  When we flush out what's been difficult to stay present to, we can then access who we are at our core, and also allow the flow of grace into our lives. Disempowering internal states and behaviors can shift more organically.   

I came to this work after years of energetic & spiritual work, before a crucial element  came to light, to include in my healing.  It was the psycho-spiritual and psychobiological - what I believed about self & world, and physiological dysregulation in brain & body.   From the fertile ground of my prior work, a subtle but radical shift began as I tended to core early wounds. The aliveness within me emerged (experienced as spontaneously arising in my body of joy, love, strength, etc. ) and my life’s work as a spiritual counselor unfolded,  led by Grace. This new phase of my personal and professional development included meeting a spiritual teacher who taught me how to digest my early history through body/heart/mind, and  the privilege of training with two spiritually-informed leading edge psychologists. 

Even those most dedicated to evolving may still find a sense of struggle, surviving but not thriving.  ​Attachment, relational and developmental trauma can cause us to not feel safe and secure within ourselves, the world and even god/Source.   Such disturbances may lead to adaptive strategies that disconnect us from our creative resourceful self, contributing to difficulties throughout life, including our spiritual path.

We may engage in deep healing work  that could sometimes trigger difficult early memories too overwhelming to stay present in their bodies and emotions. We might spiritually bypass, rather than integrate, early distresses such as abandonment, neglect, abuse, premature or unwanted birth, mis-attunement from parents, trans-generational trauma and more.  We may increase our practices to get enlightened out of suffering which doesn't seem to work.  Julie Brown Yau, PhD, an expert in spirituality & trauma teaches that dissolution of self from intense spiritual practice can trigger  terror of early trauma when it may have felt like annihilation/ not-existing.  

© 2019 Brianna Ho Delott.